Disappointed

This guy was suppose to fix my small computer, supposedly he saved all of my data on 2 cds that he gave to me, unfortunately when I checked the cd, only a few pictures were saved and no videos.  I literally want to cry right now bc there is nothing I can do to fix the problem, he already disregarded all the data on the hard drive.  If I had  known he was not going to take his time with saving the information I would have done it myself, gosh people just don't ever take their time when it comes to other people's things.  It was my old computer from about 4 years ago and I had the cutest videos of my brother when he was a baby and growing up that I can never get back.  I am so disappointed, we were just watching them the over day.  I know it's materialistic and ultimately it does not mater, but still it would have been nice to have them show him when he is older.  It's so sad.  I am just frustrated at the moment, I do understand that there is no point in getting upset bc what's done is done, but sometimes you cannot help your emotions.  In any token, writing helps me release the emotions, instead of walking around all day upset over something that's unchangeable now.  I promise from now on I will learn to fix my own shyt.  Everything there is to know about computers I will know it.  I am so tired of people.

Penn State Sexual Abuse charges

I am utterly disgusted by the staff who knowingly knew about the charges and did not report these charges to the police, so fucking sickening.  I did not read all of the articles because issues that have to do with child sexual abuse leaves me feeling disgusted.  What's worse are the stupid student body protesting for these disgusting people, they are so fucking brainwashed.  I am done, because this case is pissing me off.

http://www.csmonitor.com/USA/Sports/2011/1110/In-Penn-State-child-sex-abuse-case-lessons-for-universities-far-and-wide

Lucid dream coming through

This happened September 23, 2011; during that week I was trying to become consciously aware of all of my dreams, while I am dreaming, which is considered a lucid dream.  To motivate myself to remember my dreams I kept a journal next to my bed and recorded my dreams as soon as I woke up.  This awareness actually made me more aware that I was dreaming while in my sleep state.  So on September 23, after a few days of having lucid dreams I dreamt about USUHS a medical school I use to work at.  The dream was so vivid and clear, I remember all of the colors, feelings, and mundane activities that occurred in the dream, talking to my former co-workers, fixing the computer, pencils, dealing with the medical students, it was like I never left.  But in the dream my friend Ashley who was a former co-worker from my Marriott job was the center focus.  Everyone was in place in the dream except for her, she was the only person who was out of place.  I had just been offered a job back at the Admissions office in the medical school, my same job and I was looking around for my friend Ashley who was suppose to be working there in my office.  I wanted to ask my other co-workers where she was but I got a sense that it was forbidden territory and that something had happened and no one was talking about what happened not even the co-workers who were my good friends.  Anyways in the dream, I took a walk down the hallway of the school that I normally take to get to the bathroom and I bumped into Ashley and another girl pushing a cart with documents.  I was so excited and happy to finally see her, and she looked genuinely excited and happy, not only to see me, but just overall.  We hugged and I asked her why she was not working in the admissions office anymore and she informed me that she did not like working there anymore and there was just too much drama going on, so she switched to another department and she was so happy there.  I went to the restroom and when I came out I saw her sitting on the couch in the lobby with three other friends just laughing and really happy in deep conversation.  I remember just looking at her and them in total unawareness of everyone and everything around them and I felt really happy for her, but then this sense of sadness because I was walking back to this dark office while she had gotten away.  Nonetheless I was happy that everything was okay with her.

I got back to the office and a wife of one of the medical students came into the office with two of her children which was nothing out of the ordinary.  I remember the lady's face so vividly to the point that I can identify her now if I saw her, she was really old though, around 50, and the average medical students is around 25 years old.  She had the most gorgeous children one was about 1 years old and the other one was maybe 7 years old.  They were white but had the most gorgeous curly hair that is not typical for a white person their curls looked like curls that you would normally see in a black person's hair but their hair were pure white, not blonde but white, which was weird.  All of my co-workers and I went up to say hi to the children, they were two of the cutest kids, and like their mom, if I saw them right now I would know it was them. I woke up soon after that, and since the dream was so vivid I went online to dreammoods.com, which is a website that I use to analyze symbols from my dream.  The only thing that was on my mind when I woke up were the two little girls and their mother, since I saw them so clearly and vividly.

After I checked the meaning of the girls from my dream, I was satisfied and dismissed the dream as just a unique experience,  I then went to check my email and to my surprise I received an email from Ashley which gave me goosebumps because I had forgotten that she was in my dream until the email.  The thing was I had not seen or talked to Ashley in 7 months. I quickly opened the email to see what was going on with her, and noticed it was just a spam email sent from her account, which was odd, because I have never received any spam email from her account before and the fact that it happened right after I had a dream about her was really weird.  To show you how strange this was I had known Ashley for around 2 years and have never once dreamt of her, also to what I am aware of I have never dreamt of USUSH medical school either, so it was just too much of a coincidence.  I quickly decided to send Ashley an email and told her what was going on and that I had a dream about her and then the random email, and I needed to make sure she was okay.  I was a bit scared because I thought something bad had happened to her.  I wasn't sure what happened to her, but I knew something must be going on with her for sure in order for her to show up in my dream.  She also knows that I am spiritual and that I know there are reasons for coincidences.  Below I have copied the emails in order for you to see our conversation.  God works in mysterious ways, you will see from our correspondent.

On Sep 23, 2011, at 2:57 AM, Ashley C wrote:

Simone,

Maybe I shouldn't be telling people this but you certainly deserve a better life and I'm certain this would help.  Consider this system and you definitely won't be sorry.  It truly is incredibly easy for you.  http://utnbkic.msnbcworldnews21.net  I was able to double my old income when i've only been working with this for a few weeks from the house. Whenever I read the short article I really could not stop wanting to give it a try.  Finally I bit the bullet and now I couldn't be more happy. Take a photo of your first payment when you get it.  You will be amazed at how much you're going to be making just a month afterwards. It feels so good to have the freedom to get up whenever you want and also have hardly any restrictions on the amount of money you can make. You could thank me by buying dinner and maybe drinks.

From: Simone
Date: Fri, 23 Sep 2011 13:43:47
To: Ashley C
Subject: Re: Simone

Hey Ashley,

Just wanted to say hi and see if everything is ok with you.  I randomly had a dream about you last night(a bit weird, that was the first), the dream was not bad or anything.  The place was at this medical school I use to work at before the Marriott.  You were working in my position since I left.  I came to visit the place and my old co-workers, and one of my old managers offered me a different position there, which was fine.  There was another co-worker from the medical school in my dream as well.  I then realized you were not in the office, but didn't really say anything to anyone.  Then I was walking down the hallway and I saw you with this girl and we hugged and u told me the people in the office I was at were too dull and filled with drama.  So you were working in a different department.  I went to the restroom and came out and you were sitting on this couch in the Lobby with 2 of your work friends a guy and a girl just laughing and having fun.

I didn't really think much of the dream it was not that significant for me to acknowledge.  But then when I checked my email today I received a spam email from your email account, which is below.  That was a bit weird and then I remembered right away that u were randomly in my dream last night, so weird.  I wasn't thinking about you or even the hotel job, plus the location of my dream was at my old job, so that's why the dream was random.

Hence, the reason I decided to send this email.  Hope everything is ok, just let me know.  You already know that I believe that coincidences are there for a reason and purpose.

On Sep 23, 2011, at 12:00 PM, "A. Carter" > wrote:

Omg! I texted u the other day and got no response so that's weird. I also just decided to go to Medical School last night about 2am. I have since left Baltimore I'm in New Orleans working for the Ritz I startOct 5th. I have missed u. What r u up 2 ? 

From: Simone >

Date: Fri, 23 Sep 2011 15:27:47 -0400

To: ashley

Subject: Re: Simone

Oh my fricking gosh Ashley I just got goosebumps all over my body WTF.  How fricking weird.  That dream was about your whole life, maybe God gave me that dream to reassure you that you are making the right decision.  I am good, I leave nov 15th to go to basic training in Texas for the air force.  So I am excited to start that new direction.  I am still in shock about the dream and your confession, how weird.  I changed my phone #.

On Sep 23, 2011, at 1:43 PM, "A. Carter"  wrote:

O please keep in touch... ur email made the hair on my arm stand up! This is very reassuring, and I'm grateful that God has placed you in my life. I am so excited for you. Like I said keep in touch cuz you will definitely need a pen pal lol... U no they say all the prettiest girl in the military are in the air force ;)

Texas

Where to begin and start, I leave to Texas in a few days, and I am excited to start that new portion in my life, a bit nervous because it is a new change, but excited nonetheless.  I haven't been on this blog in a while, there is a lot I would like to write and say, but I cannot seem to put the ords together, so I will wait until I am a more interested.