Disappointed

This guy was suppose to fix my small computer, supposedly he saved all of my data on 2 cds that he gave to me, unfortunately when I checked the cd, only a few pictures were saved and no videos.  I literally want to cry right now bc there is nothing I can do to fix the problem, he already disregarded all the data on the hard drive.  If I had  known he was not going to take his time with saving the information I would have done it myself, gosh people just don't ever take their time when it comes to other people's things.  It was my old computer from about 4 years ago and I had the cutest videos of my brother when he was a baby and growing up that I can never get back.  I am so disappointed, we were just watching them the over day.  I know it's materialistic and ultimately it does not mater, but still it would have been nice to have them show him when he is older.  It's so sad.  I am just frustrated at the moment, I do understand that there is no point in getting upset bc what's done is done, but sometimes you cannot help your emotions.  In any token, writing helps me release the emotions, instead of walking around all day upset over something that's unchangeable now.  I promise from now on I will learn to fix my own shyt.  Everything there is to know about computers I will know it.  I am so tired of people.

Penn State Sexual Abuse charges

I am utterly disgusted by the staff who knowingly knew about the charges and did not report these charges to the police, so fucking sickening.  I did not read all of the articles because issues that have to do with child sexual abuse leaves me feeling disgusted.  What's worse are the stupid student body protesting for these disgusting people, they are so fucking brainwashed.  I am done, because this case is pissing me off.

http://www.csmonitor.com/USA/Sports/2011/1110/In-Penn-State-child-sex-abuse-case-lessons-for-universities-far-and-wide

Lucid dream coming through

This happened September 23, 2011; during that week I was trying to become consciously aware of all of my dreams, while I am dreaming, which is considered a lucid dream.  To motivate myself to remember my dreams I kept a journal next to my bed and recorded my dreams as soon as I woke up.  This awareness actually made me more aware that I was dreaming while in my sleep state.  So on September 23, after a few days of having lucid dreams I dreamt about USUHS a medical school I use to work at.  The dream was so vivid and clear, I remember all of the colors, feelings, and mundane activities that occurred in the dream, talking to my former co-workers, fixing the computer, pencils, dealing with the medical students, it was like I never left.  But in the dream my friend Ashley who was a former co-worker from my Marriott job was the center focus.  Everyone was in place in the dream except for her, she was the only person who was out of place.  I had just been offered a job back at the Admissions office in the medical school, my same job and I was looking around for my friend Ashley who was suppose to be working there in my office.  I wanted to ask my other co-workers where she was but I got a sense that it was forbidden territory and that something had happened and no one was talking about what happened not even the co-workers who were my good friends.  Anyways in the dream, I took a walk down the hallway of the school that I normally take to get to the bathroom and I bumped into Ashley and another girl pushing a cart with documents.  I was so excited and happy to finally see her, and she looked genuinely excited and happy, not only to see me, but just overall.  We hugged and I asked her why she was not working in the admissions office anymore and she informed me that she did not like working there anymore and there was just too much drama going on, so she switched to another department and she was so happy there.  I went to the restroom and when I came out I saw her sitting on the couch in the lobby with three other friends just laughing and really happy in deep conversation.  I remember just looking at her and them in total unawareness of everyone and everything around them and I felt really happy for her, but then this sense of sadness because I was walking back to this dark office while she had gotten away.  Nonetheless I was happy that everything was okay with her.

I got back to the office and a wife of one of the medical students came into the office with two of her children which was nothing out of the ordinary.  I remember the lady's face so vividly to the point that I can identify her now if I saw her, she was really old though, around 50, and the average medical students is around 25 years old.  She had the most gorgeous children one was about 1 years old and the other one was maybe 7 years old.  They were white but had the most gorgeous curly hair that is not typical for a white person their curls looked like curls that you would normally see in a black person's hair but their hair were pure white, not blonde but white, which was weird.  All of my co-workers and I went up to say hi to the children, they were two of the cutest kids, and like their mom, if I saw them right now I would know it was them. I woke up soon after that, and since the dream was so vivid I went online to dreammoods.com, which is a website that I use to analyze symbols from my dream.  The only thing that was on my mind when I woke up were the two little girls and their mother, since I saw them so clearly and vividly.

After I checked the meaning of the girls from my dream, I was satisfied and dismissed the dream as just a unique experience,  I then went to check my email and to my surprise I received an email from Ashley which gave me goosebumps because I had forgotten that she was in my dream until the email.  The thing was I had not seen or talked to Ashley in 7 months. I quickly opened the email to see what was going on with her, and noticed it was just a spam email sent from her account, which was odd, because I have never received any spam email from her account before and the fact that it happened right after I had a dream about her was really weird.  To show you how strange this was I had known Ashley for around 2 years and have never once dreamt of her, also to what I am aware of I have never dreamt of USUSH medical school either, so it was just too much of a coincidence.  I quickly decided to send Ashley an email and told her what was going on and that I had a dream about her and then the random email, and I needed to make sure she was okay.  I was a bit scared because I thought something bad had happened to her.  I wasn't sure what happened to her, but I knew something must be going on with her for sure in order for her to show up in my dream.  She also knows that I am spiritual and that I know there are reasons for coincidences.  Below I have copied the emails in order for you to see our conversation.  God works in mysterious ways, you will see from our correspondent.

On Sep 23, 2011, at 2:57 AM, Ashley C wrote:

Simone,

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From: Simone
Date: Fri, 23 Sep 2011 13:43:47
To: Ashley C
Subject: Re: Simone

Hey Ashley,

Just wanted to say hi and see if everything is ok with you.  I randomly had a dream about you last night(a bit weird, that was the first), the dream was not bad or anything.  The place was at this medical school I use to work at before the Marriott.  You were working in my position since I left.  I came to visit the place and my old co-workers, and one of my old managers offered me a different position there, which was fine.  There was another co-worker from the medical school in my dream as well.  I then realized you were not in the office, but didn't really say anything to anyone.  Then I was walking down the hallway and I saw you with this girl and we hugged and u told me the people in the office I was at were too dull and filled with drama.  So you were working in a different department.  I went to the restroom and came out and you were sitting on this couch in the Lobby with 2 of your work friends a guy and a girl just laughing and having fun.

I didn't really think much of the dream it was not that significant for me to acknowledge.  But then when I checked my email today I received a spam email from your email account, which is below.  That was a bit weird and then I remembered right away that u were randomly in my dream last night, so weird.  I wasn't thinking about you or even the hotel job, plus the location of my dream was at my old job, so that's why the dream was random.

Hence, the reason I decided to send this email.  Hope everything is ok, just let me know.  You already know that I believe that coincidences are there for a reason and purpose.

On Sep 23, 2011, at 12:00 PM, "A. Carter" > wrote:

Omg! I texted u the other day and got no response so that's weird. I also just decided to go to Medical School last night about 2am. I have since left Baltimore I'm in New Orleans working for the Ritz I startOct 5th. I have missed u. What r u up 2 ? 

From: Simone >

Date: Fri, 23 Sep 2011 15:27:47 -0400

To: ashley

Subject: Re: Simone

Oh my fricking gosh Ashley I just got goosebumps all over my body WTF.  How fricking weird.  That dream was about your whole life, maybe God gave me that dream to reassure you that you are making the right decision.  I am good, I leave nov 15th to go to basic training in Texas for the air force.  So I am excited to start that new direction.  I am still in shock about the dream and your confession, how weird.  I changed my phone #.

On Sep 23, 2011, at 1:43 PM, "A. Carter"  wrote:

O please keep in touch... ur email made the hair on my arm stand up! This is very reassuring, and I'm grateful that God has placed you in my life. I am so excited for you. Like I said keep in touch cuz you will definitely need a pen pal lol... U no they say all the prettiest girl in the military are in the air force ;)

Texas

Where to begin and start, I leave to Texas in a few days, and I am excited to start that new portion in my life, a bit nervous because it is a new change, but excited nonetheless.  I haven't been on this blog in a while, there is a lot I would like to write and say, but I cannot seem to put the ords together, so I will wait until I am a more interested.

'Catch me if you Can'

I cannot believe I am just watching this movie.  Frank was amazing, Wow!!  Talk about confidence.  One of my all time favorite movies now.  Frank does not do a half ass job.  I don't wanna say too much about what occurred you just have to watch it.

Tracy Chapman-The Crosswords

All you folks think you own my life
But you never made any sacrifice
Demons they are on my trail
I'm standing at the crossroads of the hell
I look to the left I look to the right
There're hands that grab me on every side


All you folks think I got my price
At which I'll sell all that is mine
You think money rules when all else fails
Go sell your soul and keep your shell
I'm trying to protect what I keep inside
All the reasons why I live my life



Some say the devil be a mystical thing
I say the devil he a walking man
He a fool he a liar conjurer and a thief
He try to tell you what you want
Try to tell you what you need


Standing at the point
The road it cross you down
What is at your back
Which way do you turn
Who will come to find you first
Your devils or your gods


All you folks think you run my life
Say I should be willing to compromise
I say all you demons go back to hell
I'll save my soul save myself.

Inevitable.

Have you ever visited a place that was once yours to find out you no longer belong.  And no matter how hard you try to fit into the scenery, you no longer can.  Everyone else is walking in a pace of unison, while you try to mimic their steps to no avail.   You went back to find you can no longer take part in the place that was once yours.  The place has continued without your presence.  The moment have passed.  What is left is acceptance of what was, and what is.  Still the tears fall, the eyes have now seen how inevitable change is.

Incessant rise in trilogy novels

Can I please pick up a book that isn't a part of an annoying trilogy. What is up with these authors and their weird obsession with turning books that they write into pointless series.  Everyone is trying to be the next J.K. Rollings and they need to stop.  I miss books that actually really ends on the last page of that same book.  

I finished reading the book, 'Divergent,' a few weeks ago, it was an interesting book minus the rushed ending, but to my horror and dismay I find out that there are two more parts to it.  That book has no business having another part, just like 'Hunger Games,' did not need an additional two books to have an ending to the story.  These authors are obsessed in saving the world and taking a stand but somewhere along the second and third series of the book they got bored themselves and rushed the development, and ruined the story.  

I recently picked up 'The Passage,' it has an interesting plot and is an adventure/action book. There were some slow moments in the book but then it picks up and then halts once more and frankly it became quite repetitive and it felt like a chore for me to actually finish the book, so I did not.  The author developed the characters in the beginning to a tee, you grew to love them, and then he thrust you into another spectrum with new undeveloped characters.  I am on page 306 and I cannot seem to push myself forward to finish reading the other 500 pages of the book.  Thus I decided to check out some of the reviews to see if finishing the book was even worth my time and to my horror I found out the book is a part of a trilogy.  Not only will I not get to see the outcome at the end of the 800 pages, but I also  will have to read 2 more books on top of that, oh hell No.

Another book on my list is, 'The Maze Runner,' again really interesting plot.  I decided to read some of the reviews and once again to my horror I find out that that book is a trilogy.  I will have to pass on reading it now, I just cannot be bothered with another trilogy, not to mention the reviews were not stellar.  These authors it seems are writing their books for hollywood and not for their readers.  Can I please get the authors back who knows how to write a complete story in one book and stop being so money obsessed.  I don't care if the book is 1200 pages, I expect an ending at the end of that same book.  And even if there are other series of the book there should still be endings at the end of every book, just look at 'Harry Potter,' for Christ sakes.  If the authors cannot have an ending at the end of every book then they should not publish the book.  Is asking for a ending too much to ask for?  Please enough with these new age trilogy authors.  It's time for a book that actually ends.

Stories like, 'The Meaning of Night,' by Michael Cox, which is one of the most incredible stories and books I have ever read is what I am talking about.  It took the author over 30 years to finish writing that book and just like fine wine it is a joy to savor over such articulate writing.  The author did such a phenomenal job.  I do not think any author can even compare to the author of 'The Meaning of Night,' when it comes to developing characters and telling a story.  To find a book like that is a blessing and an unforgettable story to read.  The book was so engrossing you became the words, you became the scenery, you became the characters, you were one with it all and for that I appreciate Michael Cox.  He has mastered the art of being a true writer.  Time was not a factor in mastering the book, and  in a way he has mastered time; he has told a story of imperfection so delicately and with so much compassion that in a twisted sense it became perfection in it's art. A 700 page master piece, it has been 4 years since I have read that book and the impact is still the same.  Again thank you Michael Cox for showing me what story telling is.

I had to curse out this dumb ass Niggas today!

Today I decided to follow my younger sister to the library which is only about 5 minutes from our house.  While we were walking there, there were a group of about 7 guys just standing around at 3:30pm in the phucking afternoon on a damn thursday when they should have probably been at work.  They were ogling us from a mile away.  I was already in a pissed off mood, so I was not up to dealing with anyone.

Anyways, my sister and I got up to them and they were all just staring(gross), so a few of them smiled and said hi, so I smiled and said hi too and walked off.  As soon as I got ahead, one of the guys was like, "what's your name," my response was, "I don't have a name."  He then replied and said, "how about I call you bytch then," I don't play that shyt with any guy calling a female a bytch especially when it's me.  So I turned around and stopped and said,"No, you did not just call me that you trifling asss N igga!"  I was so phucking pissed.  He was like, "What are you gonna do."  I was phucking digusted even with the other dumbasses who were around him and didn't say anything.  These guys were not even teenagers they were around 27-38 years old.  So I gave him the middle finger and said, "the next time you wanna call a female a bytch make sure you notify your mama first."  And then I walked off, he was so pissed.  I am sure if we were not out in the open like that he would have tried to do something hahaha, but there was a small crowd that started to gather.

Indian Guy caught Cheating hahahahha

• LMAO, he did not! You are my favorite Buddha call hahahaha.
•  You don't use the mouth either hahahahahahaha

  
  

Dog saves 6 year old from drowning.

http://www.chicagonow.com/steve-dales-pet-world/2011/08/dog-saves-six-year-old/

That was such an incredible story.

Media misquotes a 4 year old boy to make him sound violent.

Oh my gosh, I cannot believe they did that shyt. That is why I listen to the news with a grain of salt.

It's like that Riot in the U.K. and they said that black man shot at the police and that is why they killed him, I knew that shyt was fishy b/c coincidentally the bullet grazed the officers radio and that was why he didn't get shot(how nice of the bullet to go directly for the radio). I knew that shyt was BS, and it turned out to be just that! That guy did not shoot at the police, yet he was still murdered.

I strive to be the best I can in all I do!

Here's a quote my friend just shared with me(he's in the marines, so he knows about physical training, and endurance on the body), "Pain is weakness, weakness brings pain. I am no longer weak. I need more pain. Pain brings strength, Strength kills pain.....Hmmm took me enough years to finally understand that...."


That motivated me today when I was doing my run, I pushed myself even further than before, and made goals which I accomplished, SO HAPPY!  In whatever situation you find yourself in, there are lessons to be learned.

God is so Incredible, I love him and trust him with all of my heart, body and soul.

There is no body needed for that headline, it stands on it's own.  Just the most incredible, merciful being there is, I am so glad and so blessed to know him and his mercy.  No matter how much I get pissed or down he is always there to bring me back where I need to be.  He is so incredible and in getting to know him I am knowing myself.  I just needed to thank him and give praises to he, the merciful, loving, compassionate, forgiving, sharing being, he is the oneness that we all are, just by knowing him we will all know the beings we all are.  One.

Fishing

I started running again everyday(It's a bytch!).  Today I met this guy after I finished running who happened to be from Jamaica he was fishing along the lake with his son and a few friends, he invited me to join.  It was so fun, I caught 10 fishes and deep fried them once I got home.  It is such an humbling experience cleaning the fishes while they are still alive, I have done it a few times before but I prefer scaling them when they are dead.  Tomorrow we are all going fishing again, I am bringing my brother and his friend, it will be fun.

No mon the Old woman a gwan bad hahaha

LMAO,how she hott so.  I swear that will be me hahahahaha

No mon to ras mi love dis a man ya.

White teacher tells a black boy to, "sit down N igga!"

I am soooooooooo phucking utterly disgusted by that video and that phucking teacher.a

Old asss lying ass racist cracka mother phucker. I am literally pissed off. And the fact that he said he was trained to resort offense with offense is lying as shyt, that cracka was not even remorseful.


You see I am really trying hard not to be prejudice and to be Godly but shyt like this pisses me off.  

Fry that Chicken

LMAO @ this hahahahaha

Would I knowingly date/marry an Atheist?

The question arose as to whether or not I would knowingly date/marry someone who is an atheist.  Before I answer the question I will admit that I had pre-maturely judged people who were Atheists inadvertently.  It was just a misconception I had because I did not know any Atheists.  I believed they did not have any morals, I thought they all went around doing whatever they wanted at any given moment, including killing and murdering people and being promiscuous with whomever they pleased.  I just believed they did not have any regards for any type of laws.  To my genuine surprise it is not so, most are just like me and the people I know except that for whatever reason they do not know the father, and for that I empathize with them.  I cannot even imagine not having the knowledge I have of the father and I do not wish that on anyone, they(Atheist) must be truly strong people for that and in a sense they have my utmost respect.  I am not fond of division and I use the word 'they' just for the sole purpose of this writing.  There is no they, we are all children of God, atheists as well as believers.

I have gotten to know quite a few Atheists that I can call friends, they love and respect my views of the father just as I respect them.  Some of the funniest people I have met are non-believers and we just have the best time together.  They have morals, dignity, a conscience, a sense of right from wrong, and the ones I know do not go around killing people I am glad to report.  Actually my non-believer friends and I have plenty in common, some of the same interest and the ability to just laugh and have fun in any situation, that is why we are friends.  They will stick up for unfairness just as I, and is that not the reason for life.  To love and help one another.  I do hope and pray that one day they and others who do not know the glory of the heavenly father will finally get to see/feel the wonderful being he is because surly he does live within all of us.  But in whatever token I pray that we all meet our mission and show brotherly and sisterly love while here living our human experiences.

So finally I will give my answer as to whether or not I would knowingly date an Atheist.  The answer is no, not because of character but because a relationship is a partnership.  We must be able to help each other spiritually.  I have no problem being friends with someone who is a non-believer.  But for a romantic partnership it cannot be so.  There will be moments when I may be lacking in faith and it is nice to have someone there who knows the father to give a word of wisdom from the father.  A relationship especially marriage for myself must be equally matched in helping one another and one of the qualities a potential partner must have is faith, love, and knowledge of the father, that is a must for me.  There are non-believers and believer marriages and there is nothing wrong with that, it is tough though and I would prefer not to put myself through that.

A learning experience!

There is so much I am learning right now.  There is so much information, I do not even know where to begin, but in the next few weeks I hope to finish writing the thoughts and info that I have gathered, as well as finish the book I am reading.  There are many information from the Akashic record that we all have access to within that I would like to share.  You will get an even more in depth glimpse of Atlantis and the facts behind it(even more so than I have already written); Egypt and it's mysteries and connection to Atlantis; God and his love and compassion for us; Jesus because he died for our transgression we have the opportunity to redeem ourselves from our karma by showing mercy,  love, compassion, honesty, and oneness to the people associated with our lives to redeem ourselves from karma and the sins we may have committed. There is so much information that is necessary to know.

To know all I am saying you should read.... "Edgar Cayce Modern Prophet Four Complete Books."

Man Claims $300K House for $16

http://realestate.aol.com/blog/2011/07/18/man-snags-300-000-house-for-16/?icid=main%7Chtmlws-main-n%7Cdl10%7Csec1_lnk3%7C219259

That guy is so intelligent and did his research and is confident, very admirable.  LMFAO @ the white neighbors anger hahahahaha, they are just mad b/c they didn't do their research and he did lol.

Late Night discussions.... Prenuptial agreements.

The topic came up of whether a woman/man would be okay with signing a prenuptial agreement from their partner.  Some of the answers surprised me, overall the answers were about 50/50 with either yes or no.  Everyone was dying to hear my take on the subject and here it goes.

 If the person I was going to marry asked me to sign a prenuptial agreement I would say, "how about we don't go through with this at all," and I would leave and be done with him.  Marriage is based on trust, if we are already going into a marriage with doubts and back up plans how do we expect the marriage to work.  Marriage is about team work and sharing. I do not want anyone's money and I prefer to make my own but just the fact that he would even have a slight doubt in his mind that I would be after his money(so he needs to secure his financial assets) or that our marriage will end in divorce is not worth it for me. When I get married it is with the sole intention of only doing it once and having a partner that will last for this lifetime.  I am not as naive to believe that all marriages will have a fairy tale ending and last forever but that is the goal for me if I decide to get married.  Personally for me a prenuptial agreement is disrespectful and just really low.  It also shows where that person's mentality and heart is, they are so caught up with worldly gains and cannot see anything beyond materials.  If someone thought I was a gold digger than they have no business marrying me in the first place, so save the paper.  Even if I had a gazllion trillion dollars and owned the entire world I would never ask anyone I was planning on marrying to sign a pre-nup.  I would hope and pray that after getting to know the person for a long time I would know what type of person he is and if he is someone I would consider marriaging. If for some reason he deceived me and was only in the marriage for selfish gains then that is on his soul and not mine and he would have missed out on a wonderful partnership, friendship and bond.  In closing I am against prenuptial agreements, it's just so worldly and selfish to be placed in such a holy bond as marriage.

December 21, 2012

When Jesus was asked by the Pharisees when the Kingdom of God would arrive he responded by saying, "the kingdom of God does not come with observation; nor will they say, 'see here!' or 'see there!' for indeed, the kingdom of God is within you," Luke 17:21-22.  With that being said it's quite interesting that some people especially believers of the bible still think the world will physically end on Dec 21,2012 as predicted by the Mayan Calender.  The end of the Mayan Calender signifies something different though; it is not the end of the world but it is a re-awakening of consciousness for many, which is already taking place.  Within our lifetime we have been told that the year 2000, and even a date in 2011(not exactly sure the date) the "rapture" would take place and it will be the end of the world.  We are all so fascinated by this theory of the world ending, when in actuality the world ends for us when we die, simple as that; and our beings transcend into another dimension.  What is happening for us now is an awareness and opening up of knowledge from God that is within us, a shift in consciousness that will help elevate our beings to a level of oneness that we need to be at.  Also a more abundance of souls who are highly consciously aware of their unconscious being are being incarnated into the physical plane during this Aquarian phase that we are going through.


 Many people are realizing that all the power lies within us.  No power outside is greater than the power that is within all of us. When Jesus was being stoned by the Jews he asked them why he was being stoned and they replied, “for blasphemy, because you, a mere man, claim to be God.”  Jesus answered them and said, “Is it not written in your Law, ‘I have said you are “gods?" John10:33-34.  We have become so caught up in the physical that we have forgotten who we are, but not for long, because we are starting to remember and this is a new beginning for many of us.  We will see a heighten need for meditation, we must know ourselves first before we try to understand anything else.  Many will not experience anything different at the end of 2012, while many of us are already experiencing the oneness of this entire human experience. 2012  will not be the end of the world but the start of a new conscious awakening for many.  Just the fact that 2012 is being brought up all over the world is getting people curious of what may happen, thus they are researching the subject, their minds are being open, and many are learning about the shift in consciousness that is taking place thus freeing their minds to the idea of this possibility, of this re-awakening of the soul that has laid dormant.


So why is it  around 2012 that this major shift is taking place and not 2000 and any other day that was predicted before for a rapture?  Well for our lifetime 2000 has always been this mysterious time that no one had ventured to before so the possibility that something big even the end of the world may occur was high because it was a territory never ventured on.  Now we have seen that 2000 was not the end all, or any of the other dates in history like the year 1000, or 1666(supposed devils' day).   So we become skeptics and start to question the things we are hearing, which is now leading to a heighten desire to research these subjects for the truth.  There are those before this time who have learned the secrets of the body and we who have not learned are starting to realize that it is the only way for truth and the only way we can guard ourselves from outside forces.  A re-awakening of some of our unconscious is necessary for dealing with the forces that are without.  Thus a re-awakening is taking place and a sort of oneness is occurring.

Oh Push-Ups please please be kind to me!

Oh push-ups we are friends.  Please do your part and I will do mine.
All I am asking you for is about 50 tries and I will be faithful to you for the rest
of my life if you work with me throughout these time.  Oh push-ups
we will become best friends even if it kills me.  I will not give up on you, so just do your
part.  Push-ups I am not sure who came up with you, but  someone did and decided to introduce you to me
so now we must become one.  Oh pus-ups you must have been made up from some evil joke or from an
over achiever who liked to show off.  Now we have met and you have to be nice!  I will try my best to spend some time with you everyday, and a bit more time the following days until we become in sync with each other.  Oh push-ups it will be so easy for me to give up on you right now, but I cannot, I must prove it to myself that we can become one.

I don't know what it is about her video but I got it right away. Loved the

laying flat on the ground one.

A Judge who says it all!

I agree with the judge, 5 fricking kids and she's going out drinking and partying while her kids were being molested, damn shame.

Jayce Lee Dugard

http://news.yahoo.com/video/us-15749625/jaycee-lee-dugard-kidnapped-at-age-11-25909946.html

What a positive young lady, we can all learn so much by watching her.  It's a shame what happened to her an the sick disturbing folks in this world.  But for her to exuberate such a positive energy and to have a smile on her face after her ordeal is mind boggling.

I miss home

Mi feel so homesick right now.  I love everyone back home, there is just a unity there, never a dull moment.  Sometimes it would be so much easier if I went back home to live, but the entire life style is so different there.  There are not any sufficient jobs really, if it was my wish I would just love to work in my grandma's field, or help my dad with his animals, and just be outside every single day.  Driving around with my uncle, being in the country with my aunt and my favorite cousins, it's just a different magical feeling.  I need another vacation.  It would be nice if they were "allowed" to visit me here in the state.  There is so much I would like for them to experience especially with me.  I would love to take my Uncle down to the Smithsonian in D.C., or travel to India with Sandy and Loris, how fascinating it would be to experience that with them. I hate to say it but it's not fair that Americans can travel wherever and most other countries cannot.

Clifton Brown Interview

Clifton is such a humble guy, mad respect to him.

"I once knew a guy who gave his soul away for love."

I once knew a guy who loved a girl more than his life could consume.  She was given the rod to his soul and with that she had control over his entire entity.  In return she should have given him her soul because with such a ferocious love their fire would have perpetually burn. But a long the way she felt consumed by the added power she received from having his soul and so she decided to keep hers as well.  As she walked she felt invisible, no care in the world, invisible from hurt for she was powerful with this extra soul.  After invisibility became tedious she gave him his soul back and walked away.

Now he is going through life sick, down and confused.  Not a care in the world, and a broken unforgiving spirit.  He treats everyone he meets with disdain and distrust for to him they are all the same.  His spirit is broken and he just can't seem to forget.  Then he meets another young vibrant and happy soul, an added ingredient to the unhappiness he feels from having such a teetered entity.  Without a care he agrees on eloping with her, but not even one ounce of his teetered soul was she given.  Caution and hurt has stopped him from loving.  He just will not feel right until revenge is given back to the first entity who took his soul.

His wife is living in limbo, he is unhappy and she knows.  Nothing she do can stop the pain, so thus she leaves.  This time he did not feel anything, because he did not care to begin with.  He had already given away his life so what matter did anything else make. Obsession and revenge is now the epitome of his soul.

What he was not aware of was the deceiver was a test for his soul.  She has cast doubt and distrust in his mind, now it is up to him to weave his way through the hate and anger he feels and enlightenment will be reached.  I am rooting for him, he can make it, if he steps out and see what we all can see.

Sometimes do you ever wish you did not have a certain memory?

Like if you would have went left you would have never met that person.  Sometimes I wish certain parts of my memory could be erased, at least consciously.  At this moment I do not see the significance of having that memory if my thoughts will run back on it.  But the ultimate goal I suppose in terms of that particular memory is to learn to get over it, live life and do not let it consume you.  B/c why should that memory be allowed to have more significance and control than others.

Sometimes I am too smart for my own good lol.  Issue solved.

So Casey Anthony was found 'Not Guilty' for her daughters' murder...WTF

http://news.yahoo.com/casey-anthony-acquitted-killing-young-daughter-191600480.html


I do not know the facts but she lied what would be the reason behind that? The justice system is so fucked up, accidental drowning my asss are you fucking kidding me. Why didn't the bytch contact the police if it was an accident, why da phuck did she lie?  Shyt like this pisses me off, I am not saying she killed her daughter, but she withheld the truth and did a lot of fishy phucked up questionable things.  If she was black this would have been a completely different verdict.  Cases like this pisses me off.  If she really did not do it then she do not belong in prison and I am fine with that.  But she need to explain the lying, WTF.  That's her daughter, well the truth is there and she will have to give account to all she has done like we all will.  The persecutor should have digged deeper, they thought they had an easy case, they had 3 years to put something decent in order.  The fact remains that there are a lot of unanswered questions especially the reason behind Caseys' cover-ups, who does that?  She will have her day in front of the highest judger who knows all things.


Other Comments:


How can you find someone guilty on giving false information, but not murder! If Casey had nothing to hide, why would she continue to lie? The justice system and the jurors forgot all about little Caylee. This trial became all about Casey, and that's what she's always wanted! ATTENTION! At least we have the satisfaction of knowing she will live in her own prison now! Everyone will hate her, including her family. She won't even be able to get a job or walk down the street!




Let's say hypothetically that Michael Vicks pet dog disappeared and he failed to report that the dog accidentally drown. He tried to cover it up by binding the dog up and buried it elsewhere. Lies about it to the police and tried to lead them astray only to tell em this new story at trial....how long does he get?


smh.....let "someone" else tell this dumbass story and see if they get off...

I am a fricking Genius

Don't mean to toot my own horn but I have to give credit where it is due, and it just happens to be me!  I don't know what my sister did the other day or what they heck she was looking at online, all I know is the next day that I got my computer back it would not work.  There was a persistent black screen everytime I tried to log unto my user account, none of the sugestions online worked to fix the problem.  The computer store was going to charge me $300 just to fix the problem WTF!  This was the second time my sister damaged my computer the first time wasn't as severe and I was able to restore the system back to a previous date, but this time it would not allow me to do that.  So after two days and literally 17 hours of persistent research, and perpetual praying a a bit of frusttration and practically knocking my computer back to life, I FIXED it!

Hanging in D.C. with one of my bffs.

I have not seen Eric in two years, now that I am back home for a lil while we made plans to chill but things always came up.  So finally today we got to hang out, it was just like old time, it felt like it was only yesterday I had seen him.  He and I as well as one of my sister and my brother went to D.C. for the day.  But before that we had to hit up our favorite food spot 'El Pollo Rico.'  We  went down to the Smithsonian it was fun, we enjoyed the day, but of course it wouldn't be a trip without something interesting happening which always does lol.   Towards the end of the day my brother and I went on the merry go around and after we got off the wind picked up and without warning it started raining like crazy.  Everyone including us was running like crazy tryna find shelter, it was funny to watch the chaos and to partake in it.  We found a tent to stay under but was kicked out b/c with all the chairs it was not safe to be so close incase of lightening.  So thus we had to run out again in the rain hahaaha, it was crazy, finally after a minute we found the metro station.  Everyone was wet, and it was a magnificent ending to our day, I love the rain.   Never a dull moment!

                                                                

Beauty/Love

Proverbs 31:30 

Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.

1 Samuel 16:7 

But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lordlooks on the heart.

1 Peter 3:4 

But let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God's sight is very precious.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.

Proverbs 3:15-18 

She is more precious than jewels, and nothing you desire can compare with her. Long life is in her right hand; in her left hand are riches and honor. Her ways are ways of pleasantness, and all her paths are peace. She is a tree of life to those who lay hold of her; those who hold her fast are called blessed.

Matthew 6:28 

And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin,

1 Corinthians 13:1-13 

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; ...

"Defend the cause of the weak and fatherless;
maintain the rights of the poor and oppressed.
Rescue the weak and needy;
deliver them from the hand of the wicked."
Psalm 82:3-4 (NIV)

1 Timothy 2:9-10
“Since prayer is at the bottom of all this, what I want mostly is for men to pray—not shaking angry fists at enemies but raising holy hands to God. And I want women to get in there with the men in humility before God, not primping before a mirror or chasing the latest fashions but doing something beautiful for God and becoming beautiful doing it.” (The Message)




1 Peter 3:3-4 
“Don’t be concerned about the outward beauty that depends on fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes. You should be known for the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God.” (NLT)

Luke 6:35

But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked.

Renditions of the song "I can't make you love me"

I use to love this song when I was in high school, the  end of ninth grade and the beginning of tenth grade specifically.  I use to listen to this song every night on the radio and reminisce about the guy I had a crush on.  I liked that guy with so much passion, it's so funny to think about now, I never thought I would ever like anyone as much as I liked him until the next person came along lol.  All my friends were so shocked that out of everyone he was the one that I liked,  b/c he was not all that attractive but there was something about him that I was so attracted to. It was ridiculous how much I liked him.  We both could not admit our feelings for each other, it was like playing a crazy love game.  I did not think I would ever stop liking him; no matter what I did I could not stop liking him.  When I look back I can smile on the events now, being so unsure, yet so sure at the same time.  I swear teenage years were something else.  Anyways here are the best rendition of the song that I watched.

Wow, this guy is so fricking Gorgeous, and his voice

doubles his sex appeal.

It looks like the guy in the 'I love' shirt is in love with Lisa.

Some of my favorite Bible Quotes

Luke 11:1-4 how to pray

"Our father which art in heaven, hallowed be thy name.  Thy Kingdom come.  Thy will be done, as in heaven, so in earth.  Give us day by day our daily bread.  And forgive us our sins; for we also forgive every one that is indebted to us.  And lead us not into temptation, and deliver us from the evil one."

Trust in the Lord in all your ways and lean not on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge him and he shall guide your path.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Matthew 25:35,36

For I was hungred, and ye gave me meat; I was thirsty, and ye gave me drink: I was a stranger, and ye took me in:

Naked, and ye clothed me: I was sick, and ye visited me: I was in prison, and ye came unto me.

Men do not despise a thief, if he steal to satisfy his soul when he is hungry.

Prov-6:30

Mark 12:18-27 on Resurrection and speaking that we live on. 

For when they rise from the dead they neither marry Nor are given in marriage, but are like angels in heaven. Mark 12:25

Poor widow giving money. Mark 12:41-44

Mark 13:4-13 the last days.

**mark 9:11-13 Elijah being John the BaptistZ

Mark 9:22-23 having faith

Mark 5:7-14, demon possessed by thousand

Mark chapter 4- parable explained 

When Jesus heard it, he said to them, 'those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick.  I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners, to repentance.' Mark 2:17

Mark 2:5-12, forgiving, healing paralytic and answering unbelievers.

John the Baptist is Elijah- Mark 1:1-5 John came before Jesus to prepare the way.  This ties back into Mark chapter 9.

Mark 7:8-9"for laying aside the commandment of God, you hold the tradition of men- the watching of pitchers and cups, and many other such things you do." 

He said to them 'all too well you reject the commandment of God, that you may keep your tradition.'

^**^"There is nothing that enters a man from outside which can defile him, but the things which comes out of him, those are the things that defile a man." Mark 7:15

Mark 7:18-23 speaking about what comes out of the heart makes a person sin.

Mark 12:17 "And Jesus answered and said to them, 'Render to Caesar the things that are Caesar's, and to God the things that are God's.' And they marveled at him.

Luke 1:5-45 Johns and Jesus birth

"But the angel said to him 'do not be afraid, Zacharias, for your prayer is heard; and your wife Elizabeth will bear you a son and you shall call his name John." Luke 1:13

"He will also go before him on the spirit and power of Elijah, 'to turn the hearts of the fathers to the children,' and the disobedient to the wisdom of the just, to make ready a people prepared for the Lord."  Luke 1:17 speaking of John the Baptist, this confirms he is the spirit Elijah and reincarnation.

"And they asked him, 'what then? Are you Elijah?' he said, 'I am not.' 'Are you the prophet?' And he answered 'no.'. Then they said to him, 'who are you, that we may give an answer to those who sent us?  What do you say about yourself?  He said: 'I am 'the voice of one crying in the wilderness: make straight the way of the Lord' as the prophet Isaiah said.". John 1:21-23 (John is saying he is not Elijah because the conscious does not recall past lives.  But the information he knows and was give was that he is the voice crying in the wilderness and the one who straight the way of the Lord)

"And they asked him(Jesus) saying, 'why do the scribes say that Elijah must come first?'  Then he answered and told them 'Indeed, Elijah is coming first and restores all things.  And how it is written concerning the son of man, that he must suffer many things and be treated with contempt?  But I say to you that Elijah has also come, and they did to him whatever they wished it is written of him.". Mark 9:11-13

"Thus says the Lord, king of Israel, and his redeemer, the Lord of hosts: 'I am the first and I am the last, besides me there is no God." Isaiah 44:6

"Therefore the Lord himself will give you a sign:  Behold, the virgin shall conceive and bear a son, and shall call his name Immanuel." Isaiah 7:14

**** Luke 6:27-36 loving your enemies

***Luke 6:37-42- judge not

Luke 7:28-John the Baptist

Luke7:33-34 speaking of John and Jesus

Luke 7:36-50 Sinful woman forgiving 

Mark 6:14-29, John the Baptist beheaded

Luke 10:30-37 The good Samaritan

Luke 11:1-4 how to pray

"Our father which art in heaven, hallowed be thy name.  Thy Kingdom come.  Thy will be done, as in heaven, so in earth.  Give us day by day our daily bread.  And forgive us our sins; for we also forgive every one that is indebted to us.  And lead us not into temptation, and deliver us from the evil one."

Luke 11:9-10 ask and you shall receive

Luke 11:29-32 Jesus speaks out against his generation saying they only want signs

Luke 12:4-5 do not fear men

"And I say to you. My friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body, and and after that have no more that they can do.  But I will show you whom you should fear: Fear him who, after he has killed, has power to cast into hell; yes, I say to you, fear him!" Luke 12:4-5

"Now when they bring you to the synagogues and magistrates and authorities, do not worry about how or what you should answer, or what you should say.  For the holy spirit will teach you in that very hour  what you ought to say.". Luke  12:11

And he said unto them, 'take heed, and beware of covetousness: for a man's life consisteth not in the abundance of the things which he possesseth.

***Luke 12:22-34 do not worry

Luke14:7-14***** Take the lowly place

Luke 15:1-7 Parable of the lost sheep and sinners

Luke 15:11-31 Parable of the lost son

Luke 15:24 'for this my son was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.'. And they began to be merry.

Luke 17:6 So the Lord said, "If you have faith as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, 'be pulled up by the roots and be planted in the sea,' and it would obey you."

****Now when he was asked by the Pharisees when the kingdom of God would come, he answered them and said, "The kingdom of God does not come with observation; nor will they say, 'see here!' or 'see there!' for indeed, the kingdom of God is within you." Luke 17:21-22

Luke 18:9-14 Parable of the Pharisee and the tax collector

"I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other; for everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted." Luke 18:14

"But even Moses  showed on the burning bush passage that the dead are raised, when he called the Lord 'the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob.'"  "For  he is not the God of the dead but of the living, for  all live to him." Luke 20:37-38

"And we indeed justly, for we receive the due reward of our deeds; but this man has done nothing wrong.". Then he said to Jesus, "Lord, remember me when you come into your kingdom.". And Jesus said to him, "Assuredly, I say to you, today you will be with me in paradise." Luke 23:41-43

And when Jesus had cried out with a loud voice, he said, "Father into your hand I commit my spirit.". Having said that he breathed his last. Luke 23:46

Then, as they were afraid and bowed their faces to the earth, they said to them, "why do you seek the living among the dead?" Luke 24:5

"Behold my hands and my feet, that it is I myself.  Handle me and see, for a spirit does not have flesh and bones as you see I have." Luke 24:39

He was in the beginning with God.  All things were made through him, and without him nothing was made that was made. John 1:2-3

He was in the world, and the world was made through him, and the world did not know him. John 1:10

John bore witness of him and cried out, saying, "this was he of whom I said, 'he who comes after me is preferred before me, for he was before me." John 1:15

And John bore witness, saying, "I saw the spirit descending from heaven like a dove, and he remained upon him."  "I did not know him, but he who sent me to baptize with water said to me, 'Upon whom you see the spirit descending, and remaining on him, this is he who baptizes with the holy spirit.'. "And I have seen and testified that this is the son of God.". John 1:32-34

John chapter 3-  look more into it,  I am not sure what it means.

John 3:16- for God so loved the world he gave his only begotten son.

"God is Spirit, and those who worship him must worship in spirit and truth.". John 4:24

John 5:5-6. Now a certain was there who had an infirmity thirty eight tears.  When Jesus saw him lying there, and knew that he already had been in that condition a long time, he said to him, "do you want to be made well?". 

-Jesus saw that he had his fair due of whatever lesson he was living out.

Continuation of above quote "Afterward Jesus found him in the temple and said to him, "See, you have been made well.  Sin no more, lest a worse thing come upon you." John 5:14

John 5:20-23, Jesus speaking about himself and the father.

John 5:24-47- Jesus speaking of judgement.

Therefore when Jesus perceived that they were about to come and take him by force to make him king, he departed again to the mountain by going alone.  John 6:15. This was after Jesus fed the 5,000 fish they wanted to make him king, but that was not his mission.

For I have come down from heaven not to do my own will, but the will of him who sent me.  John 6:38

"It is the spirit who gives life; the flesh profits nothing.  The words that I speak to you are spirit, and they are life.  John 6:63

She said, "no one, Lord.". And Jesus said to her, "neither do I condemn you; go and sin no more.". John 7:11. 

John 7:14-20, Jesus defends himself.

"Therefore I said to you that you will die in your sins; for if you do not believe that I am he, you will die in your sins."  John 8:24,  Jesus is saying that they will die with sin on the conscious of their souls bc they did not know the true meaning of life.  But they will still enter the soul dimension.

"Most assuredly, I say to you, if anyone hears my word he shall never see death.". John 8:51

**** Jesus said to them, "most assuredly, I say to you, before Abraham was, I Am.****** John 8:58

Jesus answered. "Neither this man nor his parents sinned, but that the works of God should be revealed in him.". John 9:3 Jesus speaking of the blind man saying it was not a karmic due.

"Therefore my father loves me, because I lay down my life that I may take it again.  No one takes it from me, but I lay down it myself.  I have power to lay it down, and I have power to take it again.  This command I have received from my father.". John 10:17-18

When Jesus heard that(Lazurus being sick), he said, "this sickness is not unto death, but for the glory of God, that the son of God may be glorified through it." John 11:4

John 11:32-344 Jesus weeps for Lazurus bc he loved him, Jesus calls Lazarus out from the dead.

John 12:27-36 Jesus predicts his death and God speaks.

"And if anyone hears my words and does not believe, I do not judge him; for I did not come to judge the world but to save the world." John 12:47

"Where I am going you cannot follow me now, but you shall follow me afterwards." John 13:36

"Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to my father.  And whatever you ask in my name, that I will do, that the father may be glorified in the son."  John 14:12-13

"If you ask anything in my name, I will do it.". John 14:14

"The spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him; but you know him, for he dwells with you and will be in you.  I will not leave you orphans; I will come  to you.". John 14:17-18

"Jesus answered and said to him, "If anyone loves me, he will keep my word; and my father will live him, and we will come to him and make our home with him."  John 14:23

"If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done to you."  John 15:7

"If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my father's commandments and abide in his love.". John 15:10

"This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you.  Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friend."  John 15:12

John 15:16-17 Jesus saying to love another

"Remember the word that I said to you, 'A servant is not greater than his master.' If they persecuted me, they will also persecute you.  If they kept my word, they will keep yours."  John 15:20

"If I had not come and spoken to them, they would have no sin, but they have no excuse for their sin.". John 15:22

John 16:2- Jesus saying they will kill you and think they are doing God a favor

John 16:23-24 Jesus saying ask anything and you will receive.

John 17:11, 21- Jesus speaking about oneness

John 17:24- Jesus saying he was there before the world

"So Jesus said to Peter, 'put your sword into the sheath.  Shall I not drink the cup which my father has given me?". John 18:11

So when Jesus had received the sour wine, he said 'it is finished!' and bowing his head, he gave up his spirit.  John 19:30

Acts 10:9-16- Peters vision. Of the Lord calling all food clean

"He who leads into captivity shall go into captivity; he who kills with the sword must be killed with the sword.  Here is the patience and the faith of the saints." Rev 13:10

"But the rest of the dead did not live again until the thousand years were finished.  This is the first resurrection.". Rev 20:5

John12

 ⁴⁴ Then Jesus cried out, “Whoever believes in me does not believe in me only, but in the one who sent me. ⁴⁵ The one who looks at me is seeing the one who sent me. ⁴⁶ I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness.
   ⁴⁷ “If anyone hears my words but does not keep them, I do not judge that person. For I did not come to judge the world, but to save the world. ⁴⁸ There is a judge for the one who rejects me and does not accept my words; the very words I have spoken will condemn them at the last day. ⁴⁹ For I did not speak on my own, but the Father who sent me commanded me to say all that I have spoken. ⁵⁰ I know that his command leads to eternal life. So whatever I say is just what the Father has told me to say.”