Disappointed

This guy was suppose to fix my small computer, supposedly he saved all of my data on 2 cds that he gave to me, unfortunately when I checked the cd, only a few pictures were saved and no videos.  I literally want to cry right now bc there is nothing I can do to fix the problem, he already disregarded all the data on the hard drive.  If I had  known he was not going to take his time with saving the information I would have done it myself, gosh people just don't ever take their time when it comes to other people's things.  It was my old computer from about 4 years ago and I had the cutest videos of my brother when he was a baby and growing up that I can never get back.  I am so disappointed, we were just watching them the over day.  I know it's materialistic and ultimately it does not mater, but still it would have been nice to have them show him when he is older.  It's so sad.  I am just frustrated at the moment, I do understand that there is no point in getting upset bc what's done is done, but sometimes you cannot help your emotions.  In any token, writing helps me release the emotions, instead of walking around all day upset over something that's unchangeable now.  I promise from now on I will learn to fix my own shyt.  Everything there is to know about computers I will know it.  I am so tired of people.

Penn State Sexual Abuse charges

I am utterly disgusted by the staff who knowingly knew about the charges and did not report these charges to the police, so fucking sickening.  I did not read all of the articles because issues that have to do with child sexual abuse leaves me feeling disgusted.  What's worse are the stupid student body protesting for these disgusting people, they are so fucking brainwashed.  I am done, because this case is pissing me off.

http://www.csmonitor.com/USA/Sports/2011/1110/In-Penn-State-child-sex-abuse-case-lessons-for-universities-far-and-wide

Lucid dream coming through

This happened September 23, 2011; during that week I was trying to become consciously aware of all of my dreams, while I am dreaming, which is considered a lucid dream.  To motivate myself to remember my dreams I kept a journal next to my bed and recorded my dreams as soon as I woke up.  This awareness actually made me more aware that I was dreaming while in my sleep state.  So on September 23, after a few days of having lucid dreams I dreamt about USUHS a medical school I use to work at.  The dream was so vivid and clear, I remember all of the colors, feelings, and mundane activities that occurred in the dream, talking to my former co-workers, fixing the computer, pencils, dealing with the medical students, it was like I never left.  But in the dream my friend Ashley who was a former co-worker from my Marriott job was the center focus.  Everyone was in place in the dream except for her, she was the only person who was out of place.  I had just been offered a job back at the Admissions office in the medical school, my same job and I was looking around for my friend Ashley who was suppose to be working there in my office.  I wanted to ask my other co-workers where she was but I got a sense that it was forbidden territory and that something had happened and no one was talking about what happened not even the co-workers who were my good friends.  Anyways in the dream, I took a walk down the hallway of the school that I normally take to get to the bathroom and I bumped into Ashley and another girl pushing a cart with documents.  I was so excited and happy to finally see her, and she looked genuinely excited and happy, not only to see me, but just overall.  We hugged and I asked her why she was not working in the admissions office anymore and she informed me that she did not like working there anymore and there was just too much drama going on, so she switched to another department and she was so happy there.  I went to the restroom and when I came out I saw her sitting on the couch in the lobby with three other friends just laughing and really happy in deep conversation.  I remember just looking at her and them in total unawareness of everyone and everything around them and I felt really happy for her, but then this sense of sadness because I was walking back to this dark office while she had gotten away.  Nonetheless I was happy that everything was okay with her.

I got back to the office and a wife of one of the medical students came into the office with two of her children which was nothing out of the ordinary.  I remember the lady's face so vividly to the point that I can identify her now if I saw her, she was really old though, around 50, and the average medical students is around 25 years old.  She had the most gorgeous children one was about 1 years old and the other one was maybe 7 years old.  They were white but had the most gorgeous curly hair that is not typical for a white person their curls looked like curls that you would normally see in a black person's hair but their hair were pure white, not blonde but white, which was weird.  All of my co-workers and I went up to say hi to the children, they were two of the cutest kids, and like their mom, if I saw them right now I would know it was them. I woke up soon after that, and since the dream was so vivid I went online to dreammoods.com, which is a website that I use to analyze symbols from my dream.  The only thing that was on my mind when I woke up were the two little girls and their mother, since I saw them so clearly and vividly.

After I checked the meaning of the girls from my dream, I was satisfied and dismissed the dream as just a unique experience,  I then went to check my email and to my surprise I received an email from Ashley which gave me goosebumps because I had forgotten that she was in my dream until the email.  The thing was I had not seen or talked to Ashley in 7 months. I quickly opened the email to see what was going on with her, and noticed it was just a spam email sent from her account, which was odd, because I have never received any spam email from her account before and the fact that it happened right after I had a dream about her was really weird.  To show you how strange this was I had known Ashley for around 2 years and have never once dreamt of her, also to what I am aware of I have never dreamt of USUSH medical school either, so it was just too much of a coincidence.  I quickly decided to send Ashley an email and told her what was going on and that I had a dream about her and then the random email, and I needed to make sure she was okay.  I was a bit scared because I thought something bad had happened to her.  I wasn't sure what happened to her, but I knew something must be going on with her for sure in order for her to show up in my dream.  She also knows that I am spiritual and that I know there are reasons for coincidences.  Below I have copied the emails in order for you to see our conversation.  God works in mysterious ways, you will see from our correspondent.

On Sep 23, 2011, at 2:57 AM, Ashley C wrote:

Simone,

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From: Simone
Date: Fri, 23 Sep 2011 13:43:47
To: Ashley C
Subject: Re: Simone

Hey Ashley,

Just wanted to say hi and see if everything is ok with you.  I randomly had a dream about you last night(a bit weird, that was the first), the dream was not bad or anything.  The place was at this medical school I use to work at before the Marriott.  You were working in my position since I left.  I came to visit the place and my old co-workers, and one of my old managers offered me a different position there, which was fine.  There was another co-worker from the medical school in my dream as well.  I then realized you were not in the office, but didn't really say anything to anyone.  Then I was walking down the hallway and I saw you with this girl and we hugged and u told me the people in the office I was at were too dull and filled with drama.  So you were working in a different department.  I went to the restroom and came out and you were sitting on this couch in the Lobby with 2 of your work friends a guy and a girl just laughing and having fun.

I didn't really think much of the dream it was not that significant for me to acknowledge.  But then when I checked my email today I received a spam email from your email account, which is below.  That was a bit weird and then I remembered right away that u were randomly in my dream last night, so weird.  I wasn't thinking about you or even the hotel job, plus the location of my dream was at my old job, so that's why the dream was random.

Hence, the reason I decided to send this email.  Hope everything is ok, just let me know.  You already know that I believe that coincidences are there for a reason and purpose.

On Sep 23, 2011, at 12:00 PM, "A. Carter" > wrote:

Omg! I texted u the other day and got no response so that's weird. I also just decided to go to Medical School last night about 2am. I have since left Baltimore I'm in New Orleans working for the Ritz I startOct 5th. I have missed u. What r u up 2 ? 

From: Simone >

Date: Fri, 23 Sep 2011 15:27:47 -0400

To: ashley

Subject: Re: Simone

Oh my fricking gosh Ashley I just got goosebumps all over my body WTF.  How fricking weird.  That dream was about your whole life, maybe God gave me that dream to reassure you that you are making the right decision.  I am good, I leave nov 15th to go to basic training in Texas for the air force.  So I am excited to start that new direction.  I am still in shock about the dream and your confession, how weird.  I changed my phone #.

On Sep 23, 2011, at 1:43 PM, "A. Carter"  wrote:

O please keep in touch... ur email made the hair on my arm stand up! This is very reassuring, and I'm grateful that God has placed you in my life. I am so excited for you. Like I said keep in touch cuz you will definitely need a pen pal lol... U no they say all the prettiest girl in the military are in the air force ;)

Texas

Where to begin and start, I leave to Texas in a few days, and I am excited to start that new portion in my life, a bit nervous because it is a new change, but excited nonetheless.  I haven't been on this blog in a while, there is a lot I would like to write and say, but I cannot seem to put the ords together, so I will wait until I am a more interested.

'Catch me if you Can'

I cannot believe I am just watching this movie.  Frank was amazing, Wow!!  Talk about confidence.  One of my all time favorite movies now.  Frank does not do a half ass job.  I don't wanna say too much about what occurred you just have to watch it.

Tracy Chapman-The Crosswords

All you folks think you own my life
But you never made any sacrifice
Demons they are on my trail
I'm standing at the crossroads of the hell
I look to the left I look to the right
There're hands that grab me on every side


All you folks think I got my price
At which I'll sell all that is mine
You think money rules when all else fails
Go sell your soul and keep your shell
I'm trying to protect what I keep inside
All the reasons why I live my life



Some say the devil be a mystical thing
I say the devil he a walking man
He a fool he a liar conjurer and a thief
He try to tell you what you want
Try to tell you what you need


Standing at the point
The road it cross you down
What is at your back
Which way do you turn
Who will come to find you first
Your devils or your gods


All you folks think you run my life
Say I should be willing to compromise
I say all you demons go back to hell
I'll save my soul save myself.

Inevitable.

Have you ever visited a place that was once yours to find out you no longer belong.  And no matter how hard you try to fit into the scenery, you no longer can.  Everyone else is walking in a pace of unison, while you try to mimic their steps to no avail.   You went back to find you can no longer take part in the place that was once yours.  The place has continued without your presence.  The moment have passed.  What is left is acceptance of what was, and what is.  Still the tears fall, the eyes have now seen how inevitable change is.

Incessant rise in trilogy novels

Can I please pick up a book that isn't a part of an annoying trilogy. What is up with these authors and their weird obsession with turning books that they write into pointless series.  Everyone is trying to be the next J.K. Rollings and they need to stop.  I miss books that actually really ends on the last page of that same book.  

I finished reading the book, 'Divergent,' a few weeks ago, it was an interesting book minus the rushed ending, but to my horror and dismay I find out that there are two more parts to it.  That book has no business having another part, just like 'Hunger Games,' did not need an additional two books to have an ending to the story.  These authors are obsessed in saving the world and taking a stand but somewhere along the second and third series of the book they got bored themselves and rushed the development, and ruined the story.  

I recently picked up 'The Passage,' it has an interesting plot and is an adventure/action book. There were some slow moments in the book but then it picks up and then halts once more and frankly it became quite repetitive and it felt like a chore for me to actually finish the book, so I did not.  The author developed the characters in the beginning to a tee, you grew to love them, and then he thrust you into another spectrum with new undeveloped characters.  I am on page 306 and I cannot seem to push myself forward to finish reading the other 500 pages of the book.  Thus I decided to check out some of the reviews to see if finishing the book was even worth my time and to my horror I found out the book is a part of a trilogy.  Not only will I not get to see the outcome at the end of the 800 pages, but I also  will have to read 2 more books on top of that, oh hell No.

Another book on my list is, 'The Maze Runner,' again really interesting plot.  I decided to read some of the reviews and once again to my horror I find out that that book is a trilogy.  I will have to pass on reading it now, I just cannot be bothered with another trilogy, not to mention the reviews were not stellar.  These authors it seems are writing their books for hollywood and not for their readers.  Can I please get the authors back who knows how to write a complete story in one book and stop being so money obsessed.  I don't care if the book is 1200 pages, I expect an ending at the end of that same book.  And even if there are other series of the book there should still be endings at the end of every book, just look at 'Harry Potter,' for Christ sakes.  If the authors cannot have an ending at the end of every book then they should not publish the book.  Is asking for a ending too much to ask for?  Please enough with these new age trilogy authors.  It's time for a book that actually ends.

Stories like, 'The Meaning of Night,' by Michael Cox, which is one of the most incredible stories and books I have ever read is what I am talking about.  It took the author over 30 years to finish writing that book and just like fine wine it is a joy to savor over such articulate writing.  The author did such a phenomenal job.  I do not think any author can even compare to the author of 'The Meaning of Night,' when it comes to developing characters and telling a story.  To find a book like that is a blessing and an unforgettable story to read.  The book was so engrossing you became the words, you became the scenery, you became the characters, you were one with it all and for that I appreciate Michael Cox.  He has mastered the art of being a true writer.  Time was not a factor in mastering the book, and  in a way he has mastered time; he has told a story of imperfection so delicately and with so much compassion that in a twisted sense it became perfection in it's art. A 700 page master piece, it has been 4 years since I have read that book and the impact is still the same.  Again thank you Michael Cox for showing me what story telling is.

I had to curse out this dumb ass Niggas today!

Today I decided to follow my younger sister to the library which is only about 5 minutes from our house.  While we were walking there, there were a group of about 7 guys just standing around at 3:30pm in the phucking afternoon on a damn thursday when they should have probably been at work.  They were ogling us from a mile away.  I was already in a pissed off mood, so I was not up to dealing with anyone.

Anyways, my sister and I got up to them and they were all just staring(gross), so a few of them smiled and said hi, so I smiled and said hi too and walked off.  As soon as I got ahead, one of the guys was like, "what's your name," my response was, "I don't have a name."  He then replied and said, "how about I call you bytch then," I don't play that shyt with any guy calling a female a bytch especially when it's me.  So I turned around and stopped and said,"No, you did not just call me that you trifling asss N igga!"  I was so phucking pissed.  He was like, "What are you gonna do."  I was phucking digusted even with the other dumbasses who were around him and didn't say anything.  These guys were not even teenagers they were around 27-38 years old.  So I gave him the middle finger and said, "the next time you wanna call a female a bytch make sure you notify your mama first."  And then I walked off, he was so pissed.  I am sure if we were not out in the open like that he would have tried to do something hahaha, but there was a small crowd that started to gather.

Indian Guy caught Cheating hahahahha

• LMAO, he did not! You are my favorite Buddha call hahahaha.
•  You don't use the mouth either hahahahahahaha

  
  

Dog saves 6 year old from drowning.

http://www.chicagonow.com/steve-dales-pet-world/2011/08/dog-saves-six-year-old/

That was such an incredible story.

Media misquotes a 4 year old boy to make him sound violent.

Oh my gosh, I cannot believe they did that shyt. That is why I listen to the news with a grain of salt.

It's like that Riot in the U.K. and they said that black man shot at the police and that is why they killed him, I knew that shyt was fishy b/c coincidentally the bullet grazed the officers radio and that was why he didn't get shot(how nice of the bullet to go directly for the radio). I knew that shyt was BS, and it turned out to be just that! That guy did not shoot at the police, yet he was still murdered.

I strive to be the best I can in all I do!

Here's a quote my friend just shared with me(he's in the marines, so he knows about physical training, and endurance on the body), "Pain is weakness, weakness brings pain. I am no longer weak. I need more pain. Pain brings strength, Strength kills pain.....Hmmm took me enough years to finally understand that...."


That motivated me today when I was doing my run, I pushed myself even further than before, and made goals which I accomplished, SO HAPPY!  In whatever situation you find yourself in, there are lessons to be learned.

God is so Incredible, I love him and trust him with all of my heart, body and soul.

There is no body needed for that headline, it stands on it's own.  Just the most incredible, merciful being there is, I am so glad and so blessed to know him and his mercy.  No matter how much I get pissed or down he is always there to bring me back where I need to be.  He is so incredible and in getting to know him I am knowing myself.  I just needed to thank him and give praises to he, the merciful, loving, compassionate, forgiving, sharing being, he is the oneness that we all are, just by knowing him we will all know the beings we all are.  One.

Fishing

I started running again everyday(It's a bytch!).  Today I met this guy after I finished running who happened to be from Jamaica he was fishing along the lake with his son and a few friends, he invited me to join.  It was so fun, I caught 10 fishes and deep fried them once I got home.  It is such an humbling experience cleaning the fishes while they are still alive, I have done it a few times before but I prefer scaling them when they are dead.  Tomorrow we are all going fishing again, I am bringing my brother and his friend, it will be fun.

No mon the Old woman a gwan bad hahaha

LMAO,how she hott so.  I swear that will be me hahahahaha

No mon to ras mi love dis a man ya.

White teacher tells a black boy to, "sit down N igga!"

I am soooooooooo phucking utterly disgusted by that video and that phucking teacher.a

Old asss lying ass racist cracka mother phucker. I am literally pissed off. And the fact that he said he was trained to resort offense with offense is lying as shyt, that cracka was not even remorseful.


You see I am really trying hard not to be prejudice and to be Godly but shyt like this pisses me off.  

Fry that Chicken

LMAO @ this hahahahaha

Would I knowingly date/marry an Atheist?

The question arose as to whether or not I would knowingly date/marry someone who is an atheist.  Before I answer the question I will admit that I had pre-maturely judged people who were Atheists inadvertently.  It was just a misconception I had because I did not know any Atheists.  I believed they did not have any morals, I thought they all went around doing whatever they wanted at any given moment, including killing and murdering people and being promiscuous with whomever they pleased.  I just believed they did not have any regards for any type of laws.  To my genuine surprise it is not so, most are just like me and the people I know except that for whatever reason they do not know the father, and for that I empathize with them.  I cannot even imagine not having the knowledge I have of the father and I do not wish that on anyone, they(Atheist) must be truly strong people for that and in a sense they have my utmost respect.  I am not fond of division and I use the word 'they' just for the sole purpose of this writing.  There is no they, we are all children of God, atheists as well as believers.

I have gotten to know quite a few Atheists that I can call friends, they love and respect my views of the father just as I respect them.  Some of the funniest people I have met are non-believers and we just have the best time together.  They have morals, dignity, a conscience, a sense of right from wrong, and the ones I know do not go around killing people I am glad to report.  Actually my non-believer friends and I have plenty in common, some of the same interest and the ability to just laugh and have fun in any situation, that is why we are friends.  They will stick up for unfairness just as I, and is that not the reason for life.  To love and help one another.  I do hope and pray that one day they and others who do not know the glory of the heavenly father will finally get to see/feel the wonderful being he is because surly he does live within all of us.  But in whatever token I pray that we all meet our mission and show brotherly and sisterly love while here living our human experiences.

So finally I will give my answer as to whether or not I would knowingly date an Atheist.  The answer is no, not because of character but because a relationship is a partnership.  We must be able to help each other spiritually.  I have no problem being friends with someone who is a non-believer.  But for a romantic partnership it cannot be so.  There will be moments when I may be lacking in faith and it is nice to have someone there who knows the father to give a word of wisdom from the father.  A relationship especially marriage for myself must be equally matched in helping one another and one of the qualities a potential partner must have is faith, love, and knowledge of the father, that is a must for me.  There are non-believers and believer marriages and there is nothing wrong with that, it is tough though and I would prefer not to put myself through that.

A learning experience!

There is so much I am learning right now.  There is so much information, I do not even know where to begin, but in the next few weeks I hope to finish writing the thoughts and info that I have gathered, as well as finish the book I am reading.  There are many information from the Akashic record that we all have access to within that I would like to share.  You will get an even more in depth glimpse of Atlantis and the facts behind it(even more so than I have already written); Egypt and it's mysteries and connection to Atlantis; God and his love and compassion for us; Jesus because he died for our transgression we have the opportunity to redeem ourselves from our karma by showing mercy,  love, compassion, honesty, and oneness to the people associated with our lives to redeem ourselves from karma and the sins we may have committed. There is so much information that is necessary to know.

To know all I am saying you should read.... "Edgar Cayce Modern Prophet Four Complete Books."